Raveing, rather than ranting

Before i head to Mos i'd like to blog. I'd like to write and let my fingers fly accross the keyboard once again. I love the music, the sounds, the constant chatter of the monologue between my keyboard and i. What was that movie that said, the reason he reads so much is because he's fucking boring and nobody would talk to him. kind of struck a bitter chord there, i'm being reclusive again, but i love the freedom of being a recluse, i owe (almost) nobody nothing. I can cut and run now, far away and mostly i dont care if i ever see most people again, i hate it when people have a hold on my life, i am after all my own man, fixed and free, and i feel so much better now. I am better now, my heart though was not and may never be fixed, just that a new one was made, modeled after the old one. I WANT to see the truth, I want to believe in something, And i know i'll be fine, i'd really like to make a daisy chain for fun, skip and hop and dance in circles, it'd be better if there was someone to dance with, but its ot really something i need. I liked that line from boston legal, by alan shore and he said, The only thing i require from a relationship is that I remain completely and utterly alone. And now i know why and how its possible.

Rlue Number 1: Everything is expandable
Rlue Number 2: You'll always be fine
Rule Number 3: You dont need anything
Rule Number 4: There is always a choice
Rule Number 5: Any extreme action to be taken must always be done in cold blood in complete and full understanding of the consequences, which must be deemed irrelevant, or nothing more than a minor inconvineance
Rule Number 6: All Debts must be paid in full
Rule Number 7: Never commit yourself to something unless you're prepared to everything for what ever you're committed to
Rule Number 8: We do not kill for pleasure
Rule Number 9: Believe everything, trust nothing
Rule Number 10: You don'y try, you will never know