Lets give it up for the new year

The truth is everyone's going to hurt you. you just have to decide who's worth the pain. Someone said on msn. Which is true. Most people arent, the more you get hurt, the worse the pain is, the higher your price gets. The ones that really hurt you are the ones you choose to let in. Really in, into your life and your heart and soul. Let Love in, right?

Deep down inside, i've become commitment phobic. I'm terrified, scared shitless to let somebody new into my life. I dont think i can, i dont believe it'll work out, i dont believe some chick is worth the pain, and i absolutely refuse to go through it again. I miss, but at the same time i wont.

I refuse to turn some nice girl into this jaded thing. Maybe thats why i've been single for so long. But its alright i like my life enough the way it is, simple and free. new years resolution this year is to stop drinking for awhile, do an emotional stock take, then OTOT, carry on.