I'd give it all gladly if our lives could be like that.

Bob Dylan's Dream is one of my favorite Dylan Songs. Dylan is always my best friend when i feel like this. Ironically i was fine yesterday, tonight is gonna be a long night.

She makes love just like a woman, she aches just like a woman, but she breaks just like a little girl.

Ok. First off on my agenda, NOT get drunk. have fun. And remember what you're there for. To have fun. Not to put another bullet through your social circle.

Smoke, breathe in, breathe out.

I'd give it all gladly if our lives could be like that.

I think I'm going to throw up.

Dylan, Dylan, Dylan. Makes it all seem alright, that everything is so conveniently fucked up. He's the man who puts it into perspective. He makes it sound so alright that it is. Thats why i love Dylan, some people just make it seem worse. Its not that I don't appreciate the care and effort, I really do, and it means a lot to me, its just that... . Maybe i'm as ungrateful as you say I am, i am a loner, and i'd much rather be alone mostly, especially now. My distrust towards people is at an all time high. My expectations are still there, its just now i expect to be disappointed as well. Doesn't numb the pain, it just allows me to shout an "I told you so" at myself and get more cynical later. Blame the world, blame the army, blame the people, the situation, but don't blame yourself. Not if you want to live, if you want to carry on this meaningless existence. Forget her.