Vomit Green

Why do souls have a sound. What is it? I think mine has been reduced to an empty rattle. Hollow, clanging, grating on the ears. Are things bad? I don't think so, though i can imagine how they can be better. What do I want? Yeah sorry for the mixed signals. I want to care less about the things I care about. I want to stop feeling like shit over you, You, and YOU. I'll probably never say it to your face. Maybe its a lack of courage. Maybe its because I don't care enough to be honest with you. Probably, because I don't care enough at all. And I still want to care less. I would like to die. To forget. To not exist. I would like to go into my tiny world, and subsist. I believe everyday is new, I believe that everyday we have to create ourselves and believe in ourselves. We have to, or we will cease to exist - eventually. We are the sum of our actions, the sum of the people who believe in us. When that is no more; we do not exist, We are no more. In my privacy, there is music, there is word, and there is an imagination of things that exist only there. If you cared enough, I would share my privacy with you. You would know why and what IS. Is, as opposed to the vague reality that surrounds me. I am inconceivably tired, and wish you would sod off, because I don't have the energy to sustain you in my life. I do, but you're not worth it. If anything, you should congratulate me, for now I truly have a deep hatred for all mankind, and human relationships. All or nothing. If you cannot choose all, I'll choose nothing. Care less Jeremy, because this world is in short supply of it, and nobody is really worth the time. Fuck this, I'm going to numb out.