In perfect love and perfect trust

How happy is the blameless Vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd.

Ignorance is bliss, knowledge is power, with great power comes great responsibility, with great responsibility comes great guilt.

If anything ever made us human, it is in our capacity to feel guilt. Our ability to "know better" forces us into a position to do better. We are thrust into understanding, and action. By the laws of the universe, every action creates an equal and opposite reaction. High up on our pedestals, we try to rationalise the actions we make with the cost they produce. With enough knowledge, every cost magnifies, and every action seems an action in futility.

Eventually we reach the point of why bother. What lasts forever? What lasts long enough? What do I value.

When people ask me if I am happy, I never know how to answer. I am though what I sought to be. I am content, and I am alright with things just the way they are. With this path I'm going down. It's not easy, it's painful, and sometimes it rips me apart. I believe it's worth something, to be a better human being.

Let me be pure,
Let me be sweet,
Let me be graceful in the face of defeat.

I'm not perfect, but I would like to be.