Jumper

Everyone’s got to face down the demons

I think i got a pretty close look at my inner demons last night. The conversation with john, and the movie added up to some grand master plan.

We, as humans have the ability to rise above animals, living for pain or pleasure, but we seldom do, living in comfort zones. I would be guilty for living for moments, and extremes in emotions, loving the extremely painful, or the extremely wonderful.

Well at least I know what my demons are, and i have to take them into consideration when i forge myself anew. There are some sides of me that even i find hard to acknowledge. And i have only once found peace with that side.

Other than that my sense of self control and discpline has slipped too much over the last few years. And i need to find that again. I think i lost it in my comfort zones, when i stopped having to walk the line between loving myself and keeping myself under reps.

Well not that i know how far i can fall, which would be infinately, i need to find out how far i can rise, with all these restraints in place. The beast within me rages, and i will fight the good fight.