Oh where oh where, can my baby be, the lord took her away from me, so i got really upset

i want to say hi, but i'm not sure what i'd do after that. I miss you, so much, so much more than i'd care to admit. I'll be brainwashed soon, i may even forget what it means to care. I'm not sure if i'm happy about that, mixed feelings i guess, like so much in my life now. I feel like i'm walking a thin line, between what is and whats not.

I just wish i knew, maybe, i just wish i cared enough to know. I think its ironic i'm crying out so much and so hard because i want to be happy. And its doubly ironic that i dont want to be happy because it never really lasts, i dont want to deal with being let down.

I feel dumb, and completely reassured with being human. And that makes me, not sad.