All Broken Up and Dancing Revisited

I am not that impressed with neon bible. It has yet to make me feel anything. Maybe i should listen to it another time. Today was a Motion City Soundtrack day. I feel very emo kid lately. After MCS i had a good listen to Morrissey. Maybe thats why I'm having hard time feeling very neon bible. Oh then it was Sway by Bic Runga. I wanna go to New Zeland!

I felt like me for the first time in a really long time. By this i mean the side of me that i really really love. And now i'm waiting for it to pass. Everything changes nothing is truly lost, i guess by this it means that that side of me is never truly lost, its just my attitude towards it has changed.

I think its Belle and Sebastian for tomorrow on the way to work. Maybe the Lazy Line Painter Jane EP. Ok, Neon Bible is getting better towards the mid. Or maybe something with Piano, its a good mood for piano. God damm it everybody's disappeared. Working, overseas, and theres one person who's got a curfew, no prizes there.

I want something moody! I really need to balance this optimism. Good thing i borrowed All Broken up and Dancing. I read the last page first haha shame on me. Its fantastic.


People dance to forget their blues. Move that waist, Brinsley. Laugh and cry all you want, but keep moving. Keep feeling alive and don't back down.

A bit faster, Brinsley.

Much faster than that. Let the notes beat through the centre of your excruciation. The dance and the dancer are the same now. Move those hands, lift those thighs. Don't look at the photos. Or the Mess. Look up at the moon, and swear you'd never stop. Move around the corners and stop feeling tired. Let yourself go, even though you don't know why. Tomorrow will solve itself. Brinsley. Just don't stop dancing... don't you dare stop dancing...

Leave him there, whoever you are. Let him be. Move away from his room. His time has come, and its time to drift from him. We want nothing more than to see him dance.

We're leaving you Brinsley. All we see is the window sill. We're floating away somewhere else.

Keep on dancing Brinsley, and you will dome down again. You are not alone. You have to believe. Yes, yes. You shall weep for yourself, and the world... and one day the world will weep for you... Brinsley...

Off-tangent toward Mars, Brinsley..."


As i type that i really wanted to put a few words in caps. Kelvin Tan is pretty fantastic. Towards the end, somewhere deep inside, i whispered to myself.

"When you're shining around the world..."

I have Howl's Moving Castle, Perfume, Life is Elsewhere, and A Hundred Years of Solitude that I still haven't touched. But i finally got a hold of All Broken Up and Dancing so that one first. I don't think I'll ever read Perfume, which means i probably wont watch the movie, since I've got the book and haven't read it. Haha my firefox word editor doesn't list Movie as a word.

New label is Scooters in the fall, is because i wanna go to somewhere in fall. With Scooters, maybe Italy. Gotta get me an really nice Suit first though I think Purple's my colour. I wanna be a boy forever and ever amen. I also want some Soma. Huxley makes it sound so good, so easy, so peaceful.

A gramme is better than a damm. There is always soma, half a gramme for a half-holiday, a gramme for a week-end , two grammes for a trip to the gorgeous East, three for a dark eternity on the moon…