How to be dead.

I-R-High. I didnt break down, I didnt cry. After that night at bar none i swore i wouldnt cry no matter what. so far i've been doing a good job at keeping the tears in no matter what. I am Content. I love and miss you but i will never show it. I am dead inside, dead enough not to care what i feel. Its so much better this way. If i find that i'm not i will continue to stab with reckless abandon. so please dont make me feel alive.

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth
No you don't know what happened
And you never will if
You don't listen to me while I talk to the wall
This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall
Where you've had me for hours
Till I'm sure what I want
But darling I want the same thing that I wanted before
So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down
And stop raising your voice
It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice
It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime
So just say yes or no
Why can't you shoulder the blame
Coz both my shoulders are heavy
From the weight of us both
You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth
You've not heard a single word I have said...
Oh, my God

Please take it easy it can't all be my fault
I haven't made half the mistakes
That you've listed so far
Oh baby let me explain something
It's all down to drugs
At least I remember taking the and not a lot else
It seems I've stepped over lines
You've drawn again and again
But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out
Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

I dont ever want to be in love again. I'd rather jump off a building.