I Am

I will be whole again. I will not lose this resolve to be whole. I will fix myself up as best as I can. Even if it means tearing myself apart and manually making my heart beat. I will do whatever is necessary. I will walk until my legs have been ground into the dust. When the time is right i will give up all the self that I have fought for. Because nothing is more central to my being that my ability to create. I will validify my own existance with an iron will. I will ride this carousel until then. I will wait for nothing, but i will pray damm hard that you will find me before I am gone. Because you were the best dammed thing that happened to me. If there is a god and he cares I hope he prays for me as well.