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Denial is so important. Everybody loves to say deal with it, get it over and done with don't think about it. Well fuck that shit. If i could i wont be feeling like this. Deal with it, the three most ambigious words out there. What the fuck does deal mean, what the hell is it? Thats the damm problem with deal with it. When you dont know what the problem is how the hell are you suppused to deal with it. What a load of utter crap. Denial is better, dont know what the problem is. tell yourself i dont have a problem, pretend it doesn't exist, ignore, and wait for it to bite you in the ass.
Today is a great day. Its almost laughable, on top of the normal shit i am trying to ignore i get new shit i need to ignore. Fan-Fucking-Tastic. Now i've got a face to put to the name. Fuck this. These people do not exist in my life. What the hell am i going to do. I waited 8 Fucking years, WHY THE FUCK IS IT WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP shit like this happens. Why in gods name did you have to remember what i look like. Stop crying; get a gun, is really nice very nicely phrased your words are inspiring sarah. Just blow off my god damm head. Atleset one of my heads gets blows.
Fuck this i dont want to deal with this i dont want to care. Easier said than done, some people can just pop into your life at any time and open up everything and fuck you like a duck, until you're a fucking quack. If i could dont care i would dont care, fuck this ranting just hand me a gun.
Funnily i know what the problem is. I just dont know what to do with it. Its a fucking paradox. I want to be happy so i need to solve this problem. The problem is i'm terrified of being happy, because when you come, when you make me smile, and when you leave and when i call and you dont pick up your calls, when i'm so fucking tired cold and alone, when i see my head being rolled over by a car squashed like a watermelon, when i feel my heart twist and ache so fucking badly i want nothing more than to take a knife stab and twist, and you're not there to tell me things will be alright, and you're not there to take my heart in your hand and keep it safe from my temporary insanity and self destructive nature.
fuck it.
i thought i was fixing i thought i was almost fixed. if the seams come apart so easily i just didnt do a very good job. There are some people who can rip it apart with their little finger. Whats the fucking point. If you who i ran into at PS today reads this blog, dont think i wasn't happy to see you. I was. But i know ur not going to stay. I'm never going to let go i really wanted to punch him, but you gave me that look, haha fucking hilarious day. I should have stayed in bed, should not have been tempted by a japanese lunch. I should have stayed in bed last night as well in stead of fucking drinking reannuals, last nights high was for today's fuckfest.
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Fuck care. I need to change my nature. If somebodys online today i need somebody to talk to. Phone is good. Life is bullshit, jesus loves you god hates you, the holy ghost is kinda nice and holy. Today was a funny day
Today is a great day. Its almost laughable, on top of the normal shit i am trying to ignore i get new shit i need to ignore. Fan-Fucking-Tastic. Now i've got a face to put to the name. Fuck this. These people do not exist in my life. What the hell am i going to do. I waited 8 Fucking years, WHY THE FUCK IS IT WHEN I WANT TO GIVE UP shit like this happens. Why in gods name did you have to remember what i look like. Stop crying; get a gun, is really nice very nicely phrased your words are inspiring sarah. Just blow off my god damm head. Atleset one of my heads gets blows.
Fuck this i dont want to deal with this i dont want to care. Easier said than done, some people can just pop into your life at any time and open up everything and fuck you like a duck, until you're a fucking quack. If i could dont care i would dont care, fuck this ranting just hand me a gun.
Funnily i know what the problem is. I just dont know what to do with it. Its a fucking paradox. I want to be happy so i need to solve this problem. The problem is i'm terrified of being happy, because when you come, when you make me smile, and when you leave and when i call and you dont pick up your calls, when i'm so fucking tired cold and alone, when i see my head being rolled over by a car squashed like a watermelon, when i feel my heart twist and ache so fucking badly i want nothing more than to take a knife stab and twist, and you're not there to tell me things will be alright, and you're not there to take my heart in your hand and keep it safe from my temporary insanity and self destructive nature.
fuck it.
i thought i was fixing i thought i was almost fixed. if the seams come apart so easily i just didnt do a very good job. There are some people who can rip it apart with their little finger. Whats the fucking point. If you who i ran into at PS today reads this blog, dont think i wasn't happy to see you. I was. But i know ur not going to stay. I'm never going to let go i really wanted to punch him, but you gave me that look, haha fucking hilarious day. I should have stayed in bed, should not have been tempted by a japanese lunch. I should have stayed in bed last night as well in stead of fucking drinking reannuals, last nights high was for today's fuckfest.
FuckfUckfuCkfucKFuckfUckfuCkfucKFuckfUckfuCkfucKFuckfUckfuCkfucKFuckfUckfuCkfucKFuck
Fuck care. I need to change my nature. If somebodys online today i need somebody to talk to. Phone is good. Life is bullshit, jesus loves you god hates you, the holy ghost is kinda nice and holy. Today was a funny day
posted by Seython at 4:30 pm
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