Happiness is to know

Today is great. Like the greatest. I feel like a million bucks, on top of the world and completely whole. If only everyday was like today. I would be a happy person. It was a jump up in the air and click your heels kind of happy. The kind where nothing could go wrong.

As i was walking home i thought. There was so much that i wanted to say, that i still want to say to people now that i can be so positive. But i dont. There are time when i should have keep quiet instead of rambling on, but i didnt. I felt like Freddy singing "cant stop me now"!!

When i'm good i'm really really good. And when i'm bad, its like angels, when they go bad they go really really bad. I feel like i can take over the world, like i can make sense of anything and as soon as a question pops into my head its nearly answered.

Somethings i should say, the things i really want to say. But i guess i know nothing really matters. if i met someone who was could suddenly understand for just a moment me i would like to ideally spend that moment in complete knowing silence. The words dont really matter, the mutual understanding does.

Right now i have to disagree witha few things. I'm not needy and i dont really need anything. second was I do make effort to take care of myself. I stopped the self destruction. I'm building my life anew, and i'm making a ton of effort to not go completely whack-o like jack-o. I found things that make me happy, and i've cut out everything and everyone in my life who doesn't. And this is a huge step for me because i usually dont care and believe in second and thrid and 77 chances.

The higher you aspire to the farther you have to fall. The longer and more frightening it is, the longer it remains in your memory. I'm happy now. Still swingy, but happieR.