del

Oh Del, you came from afar,
Worked into my heart,
Lived in my soul
and now you're gone
Leaving only memories behind
An incomplete me behind
A lifetime behind
And I will never be the same
I will never dream the same
I will never live the same
I will never remember a time
before you came and stole my dreams away

"I'm a dude", Dad

I'm supposed to be out tonight. With someone I want to be around. Someone, like everyone else who's gone far away. Only to return and somehow still manage to be a world apart. We grow and I get left behind. It's like listening to Dylan Sing Bowie, pointing out the tragedy in revolution, in change.

I've been lots of things. Mostly I've been tired, of this, of life, of trying so hard. Only to achieve nothing. If only something came back, worked out, picked me up, lifted me, held me close, and never let go.

Every time I get hit like this, I want to run. To only two people, the first one is my mother, who has given so much to me, love, heart, soul, life and everything I could want, need or think of. The second, is the person who used to give something like that. It was good once, now life pales in comparison. Somehow after all things considered, it's true. I don't want to live in a world where my heart must either break, or turn to lead. Why fight gravity, if we are falling, if our hearts grow heavier, if time and tide, and time and tide again all we do is washed into the sea, we drown, we die, we sink, and we may never soar. I cannot do this anymore, I need a break from life, I need a break, because I'm breaking.

Sides

Every person has facets. What do you do when one side of you hates the other side of you with a deep passion. What can you possibly do to make it better.

The Joke

The joke was funny
The joke was fair,
The joke was good,
in the summer air.
We laughed about it,
we had our fill

Time went by
The joke got old
We didn't like it,
but played it till
the joke got cruel
the climate chill
We lost ourselves
in the timeless wheel

A moonlit stroll with her and me

She's the girl with the flaxen hair
Moonlight on her skin
Starlight in her eyes
Sunshine in her smile
Tiny bells in her laugh
Peel away the clouds in my eyes
Makes me whole
Makes me half

Stoya

I cant remember the last time I've been taken in with someone's looks. It was a long time ago. But if i were to say anyone was hot, first choice right there. Ring flash, expose for the highlights. I like that it takes a second glance before you realise she's in a mirror.

The photographer had a great quote,

For once you have tasted flight, you will always walk the earth with your eyes turned skyward, for there you have been and there you long to return.
-Leonardo DaVinci

Superstar

Don't you remember you told me you love me baby. Said you'd be coming back again this way baby. Baby baby baby baby oh baby. What happened? Then the music stops. Coz' I'm a moody broody fucker.

Shape the sound, feel the sound be part of it. It's not the beat, its the vibrations in the air. Its the lyrics, the voice behind the music, the silence in it. If evil is the absence if good, what is the silence in music?

I don't know what i'm saying i'm just tired and lost and confused. Don't worry, it'll pass. Like the good things, like the bad things, everything will pass. And silence will come around some time.